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Assalamualaikum...
tujuan post kali ni lbih kpd emotional purpose. bukn nk bukk aib sndri, tp skdar nk pjuk hti yg da tk tntu arah.
Sem ni, bukn sem yg baik n cemerlang(chop, sem lpas cemerlang ke?) utk aku. Aku tk mrasa pn gmbira tiapkali kuar result assessment. Rsult aku tk pnh pn mmbangga kn. 


Tiapkali kuar rsult, aku rs cm nk nangis. Mta brair. Bukn mntak smpati or what but, each time aku nmp cm sdih, somebody come approach me to calm me down. Korang, korang n korang sgt baek ngn aku. Thanks for trying 2 comfort me. Tharu aku. 


Akn ttapi, aku ttap rs sdih ble each time I got that kind of rsult and suddenly think about upcoming final exam. I am really afraid if the rsult will kindly affect my final. What can I do about this negative thinking? Can somebody teaches me how to not think bad about myself?


Kalo korg nk thu, 2la msalah bsar aku skrg. Aku rsau sgt psal final. Cmne nk hdapi smua ni. Kuatkah lg aku nk truskan journey as a medical sudent? I dont know how to survive but, I really want to survive to achieve my dream. Dream to be not just a doctor but a speciallist, a really good speciallist in O&G.

I am sure with my dream but I am not sure about how to reach it? Is there many approaches can I use? Or there only a way? 


Right now, I am frustrated of myself. ALLAH, please help me!!!! I am not strong enough now.

P/S: Government will freeze new medical course. More info click here.